[a pause. she seems reluctant to say it, but she figures she might as well just lay her baggage out on the table.]
At the station. [she says, finally.] Kind of felt like there was never really anybody I could belong with. Nobody that was just - mine, that I was the most important to, or that wouldn't, uh, wouldn't leave me behind to be with someone or something else.
[she looks embarrassed.] It isn't a big deal, so let's not make it one. Just don't forget me and I'm happy.
[Well, this got heavy fast. And he's, like, partly to blame for it. But LOOK. They spent a while dancing around everything, and he thinks they might as well get it out of the way before him and Cloud have a stroke.
He watches Cloud for a long moment, then slowly glances back to Lup.]
Yeah. I - I mean, I wasn't spiraling just because of that, there was a lot going on, but... but that was part of it.
[she flushes slightly, looking away.]
I know you won't. [hhghhh. talking about this is so much.] Baggage. You know. You spend a decade in an umbrella with nobody knowing who you are and it fucks with you a bit, I guess!
[ extremely unfair of both of these men to make her talk about her baggage when they refuse to even look at theirs but there it is. lup made the mistake of vaguely mentioning it.
does. jason even know the umbrella story by now. he looks over at him a little with a frown, but he figures he'll. uh. ask. if he does not. ]
... A bit. [ a bit of an underestimation, but he just says it like an agreement. ] Just so long as you know, then.
[His eyes lower a bit, but he doesn't say anything at first before they finally lift again.]
So the verdict is... we're official, I guess? Not exactly where I saw myself at the start of this, to be honest. [Doesn't sound disappointed.] Can't say I haven't had some distant practice, but never thought I'd be using it to jump the last hurdle right in.
[What he's trying to SAY is he's a threesome virgin. He's just very bad at it.]
[ no, i'm sorry, lup might be nice enough to not acknowledge it because she wants to glide away from her abandonment issues, but cloud's just looking at jason like ???? ]
... Distant practice...? [ he sounds so long suffering. he just gives up and kind of flops back on the bed, staring at the ceiling. they're still daisy chaining but it's what he's doing. ] Is dating always like this?
[ it's mumbled and a little rhetorical. he is aware it is not. he just needs them to know they're exhausting. ]
[He gives Cloud another punch-buggy in the arm, but it's so light it cant even be considered gentle.]
I've had a hot woman between me and another dude before. [It's not gay if it's a three-way except now it's very gay and still a three-way.] If you're too good to date us, then say so.
[ that is indeed a way to put that and he turned to look judgmentally at Jason while lup said it.
and then they continue being the worst and he just sighs ]
Maybe if I did I'd have higher standards. [ saying he doesn't think he's too good for them AND an insult at the same time. he's doing both. ] You don't have to worry about only having "distant practice". I've never even been to the race, so I wouldn't be able to tell anyway. And Lup has low standards.
[ this is romantic. cloud lying down insulting all three of them. ]
[HELLO? These back to back BLOWS? Jason rolls his eyes up and makes a grab for his heart. He falls back into the bed--he's already lying on the bed, it's stupid.]
Oh! Ugh! Pierced by the searing hot lance of condescension. I think... I can see the light... It's over for me....
she watches jason slowly die on the bed, and then kicks him gently in the side.]
Wake up. [she says, but she's trying not to laugh.] You both hit my incredibly high standards of being nice to me like, five percent of the time! Good job.
[Where's HIS gentle pillow. Can't believe he's going to have to get beat up again for Cloud to treat him tenderly (no).]
That's like telling a cat not to have a tail.
[He will behave enough that Lup can lie back down with them again. He turns onto his side facing them and shoves his face between her arm and shoulder and the bed. Hiding.]
I'm not - milking it! You yelled at me earlier for walking around! You can't have it both ways! [but she doesn't sound annoyed or anything, and when jason wiggles under her, she huffs, shifting to wrap an arm around him and pet his hair.
[ no he's fine watching thanks. after a bit he does shuffle closer. Jason is not being the meat of the sandwich this time but cloud lays an arm gently around lup and rests his hand over Jason's shoulder. he is touching.... both. ]
I'd say it's about 60/40 on benefits and drawbacks.
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At the station. [she says, finally.] Kind of felt like there was never really anybody I could belong with. Nobody that was just - mine, that I was the most important to, or that wouldn't, uh, wouldn't leave me behind to be with someone or something else.
[she looks embarrassed.] It isn't a big deal, so let's not make it one. Just don't forget me and I'm happy.
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... But it's why you asked us earlier. Right? Part of why you were "spiraling". Because of how you felt back in the station.
[ he looks like he's mulling over something but not like, in a mad way. just. thinking. ]
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He watches Cloud for a long moment, then slowly glances back to Lup.]
We're not going to forget you, Lup.
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[she flushes slightly, looking away.]
I know you won't. [hhghhh. talking about this is so much.] Baggage. You know. You spend a decade in an umbrella with nobody knowing who you are and it fucks with you a bit, I guess!
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does. jason even know the umbrella story by now. he looks over at him a little with a frown, but he figures he'll. uh. ask. if he does not. ]
... A bit. [ a bit of an underestimation, but he just says it like an agreement. ] Just so long as you know, then.
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So the verdict is... we're official, I guess? Not exactly where I saw myself at the start of this, to be honest. [Doesn't sound disappointed.] Can't say I haven't had some distant practice, but never thought I'd be using it to jump the last hurdle right in.
[What he's trying to SAY is he's a threesome virgin. He's just very bad at it.]
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That's the verdict. [she says, ear flicking.] It's not so hard.
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... Distant practice...? [ he sounds so long suffering. he just gives up and kind of flops back on the bed, staring at the ceiling. they're still daisy chaining but it's what he's doing. ] Is dating always like this?
[ it's mumbled and a little rhetorical. he is aware it is not. he just needs them to know they're exhausting. ]
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I've had a hot woman between me and another dude before. [It's not gay if it's a three-way except now it's very gay and still a three-way.] If you're too good to date us, then say so.
[He's teasing.]
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pause, and she looks at jason with a VERY amused look.]
That sure is a way to put that. [a pause.] I mean, dating is like this when it's the three of us, I think.
[and then because she has to join in the teasing:] Cloud thinks he's too good for us...
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and then they continue being the worst and he just sighs ]
Maybe if I did I'd have higher standards. [ saying he doesn't think he's too good for them AND an insult at the same time. he's doing both. ] You don't have to worry about only having "distant practice". I've never even been to the race, so I wouldn't be able to tell anyway. And Lup has low standards.
[ this is romantic. cloud lying down insulting all three of them. ]
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Oh! Ugh! Pierced by the searing hot lance of condescension. I think... I can see the light... It's over for me....
[He
pretends to die.]
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[HER STANDARDS AREN'T LOW probably maybe.
she watches jason slowly die on the bed, and then kicks him gently in the side.]
Wake up. [she says, but she's trying not to laugh.] You both hit my incredibly high standards of being nice to me like, five percent of the time! Good job.
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Five seems generous.
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You feeling okay? I don't remember a single time I've been nice to you. [Tch.] Your standards are so far in the dirt.
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[she says, dryly, laying back down on the bed gingerly.]
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but a lot more gently ]
Don't milk it.
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That's like telling a cat not to have a tail.
[He will behave enough that Lup can lie back down with them again. He turns onto his side facing them and shoves his face between her arm and shoulder and the bed. Hiding.]
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I'm not - milking it! You yelled at me earlier for walking around! You can't have it both ways! [but she doesn't sound annoyed or anything, and when jason wiggles under her, she huffs, shifting to wrap an arm around him and pet his hair.
she whacks cloud with the pillow.]
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You can't blame your injuries for stuff that's been true all along. [ overestimating how nice they are AND having bad taste both. ] That's different.
[ is it. ]
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Wow… Shocking.
He does peek at Cloud over Lup, though.]
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Well, fine then. I have bad taste, but you both benefit from that greatly. [uwu]
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I'd say it's about 60/40 on benefits and drawbacks.
[ he says, cuddling them both ]