[ "lup said", he thinks. but he doesn't continue to fight Jason because lup calls him out on poetry and he kind of looks away. in sympathy. embarrassing....... ]
[anyway that's what jason gets for trying to bus cloud
both of them just look in entirely different directions and she just - sort of laughs? it's almost tired, but she fuckin' laughs, and looks between the both of them.]
Well? Are you? [she asks, amused.] Are you boyfriends?
[ grumbled angrily. stop throwing him under the bus, todd!!! but he shrugs. that's the answer, that's it.
listened he'd assumed they already were and then lup threw that talk at him so he checked in with jason he did his damn part. it was extremely difficult. he doesn't deserve to have to do it AGAIN!!! ]
There's no secret. [ he lets his hand be held, glancing back at the two of them ] Or third wheeling.
[ even if she's teasing, that seems important to note. ]
We said we'd talk about it the three of us. [ which is. what they are doing. now. belatedly. he knows that, but like, that was the final decision? sort of? ]
[Like Cloud, he lets Lup take his hand so they are stationary daisy chained.
He wants to keep looking away, but that feels shittier, so he sort of carefully turns over so he’s facing the two of them somewhat.]
Yeah. We said we’d talk about it with the three of us. But I think I do remember Cloud trying to suck my soul out when kissing me somewhere in there.
[Teasing. He foxishly looks at Cloud over Lup.]
So… what’s the verdict? For the three of us. I’m gonna be honest, it’s a little different for me, especially in one of these, uh, games of death. I’m not, like, the greatest boyfriend material.
[she maybe eases jut a little bit at the reassurance.]
Wish I'd been there to see it. [she sighs wistfully, when jason mentions the soul sucking.] I'm going to have to get healed just so you'll both kiss me again.
[stop don't be dramatic to escape the serious talks]
... I mean, listen, I'm very pretty and excellent normally, but in the death games? I'm no catch, Jason. I don't think that's an issue here. [they all suck in their various ways.] If you're both all in, I've already been here. It's just nice to have the confirmation. Facescroll official.
[ why does he like either of them. the deflection by humor is oppressive and constant. my god. they're both getting such a stare.
cloud's also definitely having a moment of wondering if either of these idiots realize he hasn't dated before and just generally does not have that big of an opinion on "boyfriend or girlfriend material". he does not say it. but he is having a Moment. ]
... I wouldn't have been doing any of this if it wasn't like that for me. So I guess it's more about you two.
[ he could make this more romantic or emotionally open but they exhausted him so much with the jokes he doesn't want to. ]
He makes a bit of a face at being scolded for his VERY HONEST vulnerability.] You two are so annoying. [Fond. But ALSO, don't put it off on him!]
Uh, I know it's not exactly kosher and all, but... Are there, like... other people too? Look, I'm just making sure there aren't any surprises. We only had, what, a week? And no one there was interested in any of this except, like, the teenagers. So...
[Yeah.]
Also, call me unromantic and neurotic, but--the future? We didn't get to visit each other either. [He glances at Cloud, then away.] I mean, I heard the rest of you could, but I'm working with fumes here.
I can jump between worlds regardless of the death game bullshit, first of all. [she says, confidently.] So I'll be coming to find the two of you whether you like it or not.
[a pause.] ... I don't know what you're getting at with the other part. What are you asking?
[ being annoying, he means. he absolutely does not. but the other two he actually thinks about. ]
... We had the capacity after the Realm, but I'm not gonna be going anywhere for a while. Not until everything back home is resolved. [ and he doesn't have any idea how long that will take or. how. to be honest. he doesn't linger on that one, looking instead at lup at the other one ]
Think Jay wants to know if we're exclusive.
[ it's partially teasing. it's only partially because this is another one he hadn't really... thought about. before. as being something they needed to talk about.
then again there are three of them so that's exhausting ]
[When he gently swings his arm over Lup to sock Cloud in the shoulder, his expression is embarrassed. SHEESH.]
Like I said, I'm just making sure there aren't any surprises.
[Also, yes, there are three of them. He's making sure there isn't four or five because three already means the relationship is a bit open. Kinda. In a way.]
Fine. You're both fancy. I get it. The island just didn't have shit.
[she dodges jason swinging by leaning forward, just like, letting him do it.
and then she blinks, and then:]
There aren't any surprises. There's not much room for me anywhere else. [she says, tilting her head. she says it with a like. painful amount of honesty, because that's what she thinks.] I'm with just the two of you, if you want me. Exclusive, sure.
[Don't just say depressing shit while he's stupidly punching Cloud in the arm behind. His hand draws back slow, and he frowns in Lup's direction. Now she has two boys doing it. It's what she gets.]
Don't say that. There's room wherever you want to be.
[ he squeezes back after a second, but he is not frowning at lup any less? he gives jason a little confused glance like maybe he will understand it more. ]
[a pause. she seems reluctant to say it, but she figures she might as well just lay her baggage out on the table.]
At the station. [she says, finally.] Kind of felt like there was never really anybody I could belong with. Nobody that was just - mine, that I was the most important to, or that wouldn't, uh, wouldn't leave me behind to be with someone or something else.
[she looks embarrassed.] It isn't a big deal, so let's not make it one. Just don't forget me and I'm happy.
[Well, this got heavy fast. And he's, like, partly to blame for it. But LOOK. They spent a while dancing around everything, and he thinks they might as well get it out of the way before him and Cloud have a stroke.
He watches Cloud for a long moment, then slowly glances back to Lup.]
Yeah. I - I mean, I wasn't spiraling just because of that, there was a lot going on, but... but that was part of it.
[she flushes slightly, looking away.]
I know you won't. [hhghhh. talking about this is so much.] Baggage. You know. You spend a decade in an umbrella with nobody knowing who you are and it fucks with you a bit, I guess!
[ extremely unfair of both of these men to make her talk about her baggage when they refuse to even look at theirs but there it is. lup made the mistake of vaguely mentioning it.
does. jason even know the umbrella story by now. he looks over at him a little with a frown, but he figures he'll. uh. ask. if he does not. ]
... A bit. [ a bit of an underestimation, but he just says it like an agreement. ] Just so long as you know, then.
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[ "lup said", he thinks. but he doesn't continue to fight Jason because lup calls him out on poetry and he kind of looks away. in sympathy. embarrassing....... ]
Yeah. Kinda.
[ he could give details but he won't. ]
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His face gets kind of red, and he refuses to look at them. DON’T PUT THE DETAILS ON HIM! Dammit, Cloud!!]
…We talked about it, yeah. Got the impression Cloud wants to be my boyfriend.
[He is so mean after Cloud and him did the manly thing of trying to talk about it without being sappy.]
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[anyway that's what jason gets for trying to bus cloud
both of them just look in entirely different directions and she just - sort of laughs? it's almost tired, but she fuckin' laughs, and looks between the both of them.]
Well? Are you? [she asks, amused.] Are you boyfriends?
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[ grumbled angrily. stop throwing him under the bus, todd!!! but he shrugs. that's the answer, that's it.
listened he'd assumed they already were and then lup threw that talk at him so he checked in with jason he did his damn part. it was extremely difficult. he doesn't deserve to have to do it AGAIN!!! ]
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[It isn’t even said loud or worriedly. He glances quickly between the two of them, then looks away again.]
I mean, we didn’t… like… I don’t know, formally, or whatever. We just… talked about how we feel.
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she sits up, slowly, and reaches to take jason's hand, and then cloud's hand, holding them.]
Do you want to let me in on the secret? Am I third wheeling here? What's the final decision? [this is mostly teasing.]
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[ even if she's teasing, that seems important to note. ]
We said we'd talk about it the three of us. [ which is. what they are doing. now. belatedly. he knows that, but like, that was the final decision? sort of? ]
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He wants to keep looking away, but that feels shittier, so he sort of carefully turns over so he’s facing the two of them somewhat.]
Yeah. We said we’d talk about it with the three of us. But I think I do remember Cloud trying to suck my soul out when kissing me somewhere in there.
[Teasing. He foxishly looks at Cloud over Lup.]
So… what’s the verdict? For the three of us. I’m gonna be honest, it’s a little different for me, especially in one of these, uh, games of death. I’m not, like, the greatest boyfriend material.
[Sass good. Self esteem bad.
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Wish I'd been there to see it. [she sighs wistfully, when jason mentions the soul sucking.] I'm going to have to get healed just so you'll both kiss me again.
[stop don't be dramatic to escape the serious talks]
... I mean, listen, I'm very pretty and excellent normally, but in the death games? I'm no catch, Jason. I don't think that's an issue here. [they all suck in their various ways.] If you're both all in, I've already been here. It's just nice to have the confirmation. Facescroll official.
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cloud's also definitely having a moment of wondering if either of these idiots realize he hasn't dated before and just generally does not have that big of an opinion on "boyfriend or girlfriend material". he does not say it. but he is having a Moment. ]
... I wouldn't have been doing any of this if it wasn't like that for me. So I guess it's more about you two.
[ he could make this more romantic or emotionally open but they exhausted him so much with the jokes he doesn't want to. ]
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He makes a bit of a face at being scolded for his VERY HONEST vulnerability.] You two are so annoying. [Fond. But ALSO, don't put it off on him!]
Uh, I know it's not exactly kosher and all, but... Are there, like... other people too? Look, I'm just making sure there aren't any surprises. We only had, what, a week? And no one there was interested in any of this except, like, the teenagers. So...
[Yeah.]
Also, call me unromantic and neurotic, but--the future? We didn't get to visit each other either. [He glances at Cloud, then away.] I mean, I heard the rest of you could, but I'm working with fumes here.
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I can jump between worlds regardless of the death game bullshit, first of all. [she says, confidently.] So I'll be coming to find the two of you whether you like it or not.
[a pause.] ... I don't know what you're getting at with the other part. What are you asking?
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[ being annoying, he means. he absolutely does not. but the other two he actually thinks about. ]
... We had the capacity after the Realm, but I'm not gonna be going anywhere for a while. Not until everything back home is resolved. [ and he doesn't have any idea how long that will take or. how. to be honest. he doesn't linger on that one, looking instead at lup at the other one ]
Think Jay wants to know if we're exclusive.
[ it's partially teasing. it's only partially because this is another one he hadn't really... thought about. before. as being something they needed to talk about.
then again there are three of them so that's exhausting ]
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Like I said, I'm just making sure there aren't any surprises.
[Also, yes, there are three of them. He's making sure there isn't four or five because three already means the relationship is a bit open. Kinda. In a way.]
Fine. You're both fancy. I get it. The island just didn't have shit.
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and then she blinks, and then:]
There aren't any surprises. There's not much room for me anywhere else. [she says, tilting her head. she says it with a like. painful amount of honesty, because that's what she thinks.] I'm with just the two of you, if you want me. Exclusive, sure.
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... "Not much room for you anywhere else"?
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Don't say that. There's room wherever you want to be.
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I want to be here. [nooooooo not the boys FROWNING] I feel like a third wheel in other places, sometimes. That's all.
[she squeezes their hands.]
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... What other places?
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You can be here. [FIRST of all. Second of all:] You're saying... there used to be... other people?
[He doesn't sound angry or anything. Just curious.]
Wanna talk about it...?
[He asks so many people do they want to talk about stuff for a guy who never wants to talk about shit himself.]
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At the station. [she says, finally.] Kind of felt like there was never really anybody I could belong with. Nobody that was just - mine, that I was the most important to, or that wouldn't, uh, wouldn't leave me behind to be with someone or something else.
[she looks embarrassed.] It isn't a big deal, so let's not make it one. Just don't forget me and I'm happy.
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... But it's why you asked us earlier. Right? Part of why you were "spiraling". Because of how you felt back in the station.
[ he looks like he's mulling over something but not like, in a mad way. just. thinking. ]
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He watches Cloud for a long moment, then slowly glances back to Lup.]
We're not going to forget you, Lup.
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[she flushes slightly, looking away.]
I know you won't. [hhghhh. talking about this is so much.] Baggage. You know. You spend a decade in an umbrella with nobody knowing who you are and it fucks with you a bit, I guess!
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does. jason even know the umbrella story by now. he looks over at him a little with a frown, but he figures he'll. uh. ask. if he does not. ]
... A bit. [ a bit of an underestimation, but he just says it like an agreement. ] Just so long as you know, then.
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